For those, Who seek Rhythm in their Life

Monday, December 29, 2014

वो......

सालो से खड़ा हैं,उस गली के मोड़ पर,
बोला नही हैं अब तक… 
बस देखता रहता है…। 
उधर से गुज़रते लोगो को,
सुनता रहता हैं,उनकी बातो को॥ 

जाने क्या-क्या सुना होगा??
पर खड़ा हैं आज भी तनकर। 
जैसे खुद आज भी श्रेष्ठ हैं 
मुझसे,तुमसे और हम सबसे ॥ 

याद नही,गर झुका हो कभी,
बस बारिश में झूमते देखा हैं। 
ललक सी  आसमां को छूने की 
पर  पाँव अब भी जमीन पर है॥ 

जानता हैं जैसे सबको,
सो ताल्लुक बढ़ाता  नही किसी से । 
बच्चो के साथ देखा हैं खेलते,
तो  कभी पथिक को पंखा झलते॥ 

कुछ ऐसा ही हैं .... सालो से खड़ा 
उस गली के मोड़ पर... वोह कदम्ब का पेड़ ॥ 


Sunday, December 28, 2014

मेरी दिल्ली

बरसो बाद मुझे मेरी दिल्ली
महफ़ूज़ लगी। .......
भरे भेडियो के बीच ,में एक नन्ही सी जान
बेख़ौफ़ लगी॥
बरसो बाद.....
हज़ारो मशाले थी जनपथ पर
प्रतिशोध की,न्याय की
इंडिया की मशाल, अमन -ओ-चैन की
बड़ी अच्छी लगी ॥
बरसो बाद…
अनशन पर बैठे लोग,
दिनों-दिन गंवाए
एक भूखे  को मिली रोटी 
दिल को रहत मिली ॥
बरसो बाद। …।
आँखों का पानी जहा सूख ही चूका था,
दामिनी की पुकार पर,
कुछ आँखों में नमी दिखी ,
बरसो बाद......
कभी बुरका,कभी घाघरा,
तो कभी जीन्स टॉप में दिखी ।
आँचल में गरिमा-इतिहास समेटे,

एक नारी का सा ही रूप लगी ॥
बरसो बाद मुझे मेरी दिल्ली,
मेरी सी लगी ।
बढ़ती,सिमटती, आब सी ढलती
मेरा अपना ही रूप लगी ॥ 

Saturday, December 27, 2014

अच्छी लगी

खिड़की से झांकती
वो बारिश की बौछार 
शहरी मकानो में 
दादी की खाट 
अच्छी लगी.…!!!!! 

महंगाई के दौर में 
माँ की दांत, बड़ी सस्ती थी 
मतलब के इस जहाँ में 
दोस्त की फटकार 
अच्छी लगी.…!!!!!

एक बेबस को दिए 
जोह कुछ कदमो का साथ 
दुआओ से भरे हाथ 

अच्छी लगी.…!!!!! 




भूखे  बच्चे को जब दी थी रोटी 
वो तृप्त सी मुस्कान अच्छी लगी 
एक मजनू को मेरे 
प्रेम की तकरार 
अच्छी लगी.…!!!!!

ईद और दिवाली, मणि थी एक दिन 
जश्न की वह रात, बड़ी अच्छी लगी 
धर्म क नाम पर बने आडंबरों में
कबीर और रहीम की जाती,
अच्छी लगी.…!!!!!


शगुफ़्ते बच्चो की बात पर 
बस हंस दिए करती थी 
पर आसमां को आगोश में भरने की 
अच्छी लगी.…!!!!! 

Friday, December 19, 2014

Dear Diary #1 My Village, My Home

Sitting in my room, watching my favorite series on my laptop, I was oblivious of everything around me. The random disturbance of the flies were the only distraction. You must be guessing that this quite mood setting is definitely going to lead somewhere disastrous or unexpected. Well you guessed right.
Enters my mom, a lady in her late forties. She blabbered something, because I had my headphones on. The only words I caught at first were, "Your grandmother.....above....have to go." That was strange. My grandmother was already dead 3 years ago. What is she talking about now? I removed my headphones, and stared her. She saw my face, and said,"I just received the phone call. She is dead." That's when it strike. My Real Grandmother was dead, the one who lives in my home-village. Well, LIVED. You must be wondering about two grandmothers. Well to summarize, My real grandmother gave my father to her sister, who was infertile. 
The arrangements were made. We were to leave for my village by 8 pm. Me,mom-dad and my brother, along with other relatives were en route to the village. My village, the one I hadn't seen in years, Nine to be precise.

The journey was a 120 km far. Until we were on the city road, everything was fine. Though it was mid December, the winters hadn't strike yet. so we were in our semi winter clothes. But as soon as we took the turn for our village road, MAN It was CHILLY... The open area on both sides, made the fog even more dense. And it was a nighttime too. The road was to be a 10 km long, and the night, the fog and the alone road was making us hallucinate. It was something you see in a horror film just before the appearance of a white walking ghost!!! The chants were on a leash. Suddenly a rabbit came in front of the car. A white one, and his ears were all the way pointy. It ran in front of our van for some 500 meters, like it came to welcome us. 

Anyways, we reached there by 11 pm. My cousin brother received us in front of his home. I took a look around. Everything was different in appearance, as I recalled from 9 years back. But then it is a long time too. We went inside. Voices of mourning was coming from a room, where the body of my grandmother was laid covered in whites. All the ladies went inside,and I along with my cousins stayed outside.We looked up to the sky. It was crystal clear. We all read about the village or the hills night sky, full of stars. It was there, in all its beauty. I know, you must be wondering Why I am writing about this, when my grandmother is laying dead inside. Well she died at 87 years of age, a pretty well. And died of natural cause, without any pain. So her death was not a subject of sadness to me. Besides I know I have to help in making arrangements for the funeral ceremony, So I cant cry or let myself sob. 

Our sleeping arrangements were made, and I was told to wake up at 6 am sharp. Not a biggie, as I was habitual to rise early. Next day, after all the arrangements (details I wont bore you with), we carried her to the burial place. The burial ceremony went good, but quite in a rush, according to me. Well maybe that's the way village people do. I was the last one to walk off the place. As I was walking, I turned around and saw her burning one last time, capturing that moment both in my heart, and my mobile (Techno-savvy I am).

We were to leave by the evening, and come back again on Sunday, for the Tehrvi, a feast organized in the memory of the deceased one. So till the evening, I was free to roam around. I went up to the roof. All was quite and peaceful. I also wandered in the streets. The houses, all left alone, and build probably 100-200 years back. I am sure the ASI will be happy to dig up these places for excavation. This was something, something connecting me to the village. I was hoping to see my village for such a long time, and today finally got the chance. These streets, these houses, all was a link to the past, the peaceful one. No words are there to describe the scenic beauty. I know, if you all visited these places, the first thing you will complaint about is filth;Not the city plastic waste, but of village's cow dung. Well that's the way it is, what can I do.

The noon passed too, and we climbed up the van. Though I knew I was coming just two days after too, but this moment, this aura in the air of my grandmother, still blessing me, will be over by then. I wanted to absorb it as much as I can. I took one last good look at the door, and with the start of the engine, I bid the house of my grandmother, because next time, It won't be the house of my grandmother, but my cousin, and just my village home, 'cause I was taking my grandmother with me, in my heart, forever.







Thursday, December 18, 2014

So Tell me Some More

Tring tring!  Tring tring!! Tring tring!!!
It was the third time that I was calling her from 6 p.m., and she wasn’t picking the phone. Why? She knows that every Thursday I call her. This was the only time when none of us is busy in tuitions, coaching or anything else. Then why is she not picking the phone?
           Tring tring! Tring tring!!
           I was just going to cut the phone, when she picked the phone.
          “Sorry! Sorry! Sorry! I was in the other room doing my assignment and almost forgot and phone was on the silent mode. Please forgive me!!” She uttered so quickly that I hardly understood a word. But that’s fine. I normally don’t hear her words. It was her voice that mesmerized me so much that I want to just hear it to eternity. The sweet, ringing voice, sprinkled with occasional laughs and so melodious makes me feel like I am on the moon. Ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
“Hey! Hold your breath. Otherwise you will suffocate yourself.” I stopped her.
“Sorry!! So, why did you called?”-she asked.
“No reason”- I replied simply.
“No reason”- she said
“Yes. Can’t I phone you for any reason? Only to chat with you.”
“O.k.”
“So tell me, what’s going on?” we were on our same routine. I phone her, says ‘what’s going on?’ and she started to tell things which happened in her school, which is my Alma mator, but I shifted here 2 years ago. Sigh!!!! I haven’t seen her for two years. It’s not like that we are boyfriend/girlfriend. To her, I am just a good friend. A special one instead. But to me, she was everything. Yes, you guessed right. The ‘one way traffic’-situation.

And then she tells about other things, in family and neighbors. Which new movies she saw, the heroine, other stuff etc. on occasional pauses, I give my one liners and she laughs, and I am on the moon again. And at the end of one topic, I say-‘Tell me some more’ and the conversation continues.it lasts for an hour, half an hour. No telling how much it costs me, but it was nothing in compared to what I was getting- a chance to hear her sweet, ringing melodious voice, and then a free ride to moon.
“Ok, bye. I have to complete my assignment. I will talk to you later”- and she hung up and my heart was petrified.
Every time, I wishes that I will say my heart to her, but I feared. What if she refused and breaks friendship with me? Not only will I lose the chance of talking to her again, but also I will lose a good, close friend.  This thought has stopped me for two years.
Next Thursday, I was somewhat determined. So I asked her-“Do you have a project?”
 “A project!”- She was confused.
“Yes, a project”- I said mischievously.
“A project what, physics, chemistry. I don’t know what are you talking about”- she was really confused.
“Oh! You don’t know our code language. Project means a boyfriend or girlfriend.”- I explained
“No, I don’t have a project. Don’t have time for one”
“Really. It’s a shame for a girl as beautiful as you don’t have a project. And it is even shameful for the boys to don’t approach you to be your project.”
“Now you are flattering!!” she chuckled. Moon again.
“No, seriously. And I know you are stupid. You don’t have eyes to identify the projects around you. Someone must be your secret admirer.”
“My secret admirer!”
“Yes! You know; someone who often talks to you and talks about you. Someone very close.”- I was throwing hints.
“No, I don’t think so”- she clarified.
“You are really stupid”
And the conversation ended.
For next two Thursday, I wasn’t able to contact her due to some unavoidable reasons. My heart was about to burst out of anxiety. I decided now that no matter what, I will talk to her about my heart. I have to make a bold step.
Next Thursday, as soon as she picked the phone and I mentioned about the project, she began to laugh.
“Why are you laughing?”- I asked
“I got it. I finally got it!”- She laughed victoriously.
“What have you got?” I was rather scared. Did she finally figure it out that I love her? Oh my god!! Yet I kept my finger closed and asked again-“What have you got?”
“My secret admirer, my project”
“Who?”- I cried.
“My classmate. He came to our school the same year you left. He often talks to me. He is really a nice guy. And that day, when you told me about the secret admirer, he was my first suspect. And when I asked him frankly, he confessed that he likes me. And I kind of liked him too. Thank you so much for the advice. You are happy. Aren’t you?


I wasn’t there. I was on the moon again, but this time on the dark side of the moon. Every word was hitting me like a stone, a sharp pointed stone and crashing through my heart. I couldn’t stand any more. I sat on the floor.  The whole world was spinning around me. The words echoed again-' you are happy. Aren’t you?’
The words came out of my broken heart, my wet eyes and my shaking lips-“I am happy. I am very much happy for you. So, tell me some more………………….”







30 Minutes at Village





“The engine’s gone, sir. Nothing can be done now.”- The driver had declared.“Nothing!  Are you sure, Mohan”-I shouted from the car.

“Yes Sir! Now we are dumbstruck.”                                                                      
“Well, that’s nice; as hell, isn’t it?” I grinned, “Now tell me what is to be done next?”- I asked.
“Well, that’s obvious. There is a bus stop, not very far from here. Let’s say 50 minutes on foot. If the luck shines, we can expect a bus before dusk.”
“The hitch-hiking won’t do well, I suppose.” I can rely on Mohan for that kind of information. He had travelled a lot. Wonder, why did he get into this job?
“If you want to die a merciless death; sure, why not”
“Don’t mock me. I am your employer”- I used the last arrow.
“Whatever, the thing is, you go. I have to stay here to wait for a mechanic or something. You go hire bus for the nearest town i.e. Gangapur. I’ll contact you as soon as the matter settles. Leave the luggage behind. It will be fine with me.”
“As you say, boss”- I mocked him back and started my so-called ‘short journey’ which was not short. You will soon know why.

I was walking through a rather jungle area. The trees were silent and still. Well, they are supposed to be so, but yet…………., I know I think too much. Maybe that ‘merciless death’ thing had an effect on my mind.
Anyways, I was on my way to the bus stand. Suddenly I saw a man, half naked, in dhoti, carrying an axe and lots of woods on his shoulder. He was sweating heavily. Suddenly, he hit a stone and lost his balance and fell.  Woods were all scattered on the road. I rushed to him and helped him to collect his woods. He smiled to me. Suddenly, his bleeding foot caught my eye. He noticed it too and wound his turban-cloth on it,
“Let me help you to carry this. Are you going this way?”
“Yes. Where are you going, sahib.”
“I’m on my way to the bus stop”
“Oh! That’s not far. Probably 10 minutes.”- He said
“That’s great”- I thought. “I’ve been walking for 20 minutes, on a road of 50 minutes (according to Mohan). I was left with 30 minutes, and now he says 10 minutes; good lord. But then, he is a local resident, used to of these roads. His walking speed is thrice of mine. That settles everything. I suppose.”

“What’s your name?” I asked formally.
“Lakkad ram, Sahib”, he replied.
“Of course, how silly of me.”, I thought.
We resumed our journey. Lakkad ram carried the bundle of woods again. I offered help, but he politely refused, saying it might have slivers. But to satisfy me, allowed me to carry his axe, so that he can use his both hands. I carried the axe like a warrior, on my shoulder.
“Where do you live, Lakkad ram?” I asked out of boredom.
“Nearby village, sahib”
“What is it called?” I asked. “No name, just village”. And we talked on. Every now and then, I was left behind and Lakkad ram politely waits for me.
“City guys are soft on their feet, aren’t they?” he commented. “Well, many are; many aren’t. Not me, of course.” I was advocating the city people in front of a village dweller.
“Here comes my village.” Lakkad ram pointed to a settlement of mud houses. “And there’s the bust stop.” He pointed to a sign that said ‘BUS STOP’ with few rocks to sit upon.
“Well, what time do you expect the bus to come?” I enquired.
“No fixed time, and what is time for us? We wake at dawn, go to work, return with dusk and sleep with moon”
“So, what now, I think I should wait there.”
“Oh! Don’t worry. Come to my house. You are our guest, sahib. Don’t worry about bus. The driver stops here for a tea break. The passengers too have something.  You should come and have a cup of tea too. It is real good”

We headed to the tea stall and I ordered two cups. “No sahib, no tea for me. The food will be ready at home.” Lakkad ram said. “O.K., make it one” I ordered the tea shop owner. He stared at me for a while, I don’t know why. There was some amusement in his eyes when he saw me heading towards village.
Anyways, after tea, we headed towards village and towards Lakkad ram’s house. It was small, yet beautifully made. There, I met his mother, wife and a daughter of five years. The Lakkad ram’s wife, Kamala told her to go and play outside. Kamala lit the fire to cook. It was very strange fire. I had never seen such a fire from mere woods. The fire was rather strong.


Anyways, the food was prepared and served. Really, it was the best ‘Dal-Bhati Churma’ I have ever eaten. I appreciated the cook. Well, that’s my work. I am a famous food critic and an amateur cook.

Then, we took a stroll in the village, well, less for the purpose to explore, more for the purpose for digestion.
It was evening so everyone had returned from their work. The children were playing the childhood games. The lame walks, marbles, drawing in sand, hide and seek. It was such refreshing and rejuvenating scenery. The women were preparing food, fetching water from the nearby lake, with strong hands and such delicacy. The men were sitting outside on ‘charpais’ smoking ‘hukkas’. Stray dogs were wandering and begging with their eyes for something to eat on every house. The cool breeze was carrying the essence of the trees, coolness of mud, touching the lake and crashing on my face. I was lost in thoughts. It was so peaceful there, so calm, so serene. I thought of the fast paced city life. On one hand, I run every day from home to work and return home. How much time has passed since I spend a holiday with family? My works leads to almost every corner of world, yet I have no time to rest. I go there, taste the food, and give my comment and leave. I was there only because my childhood friend was getting married. I was returning from the marriage when all this happened.

On the other hand, there was this village, where the words ‘family and relations’ make sense. No worries, no tension. They were happy in their own way, I always thought of the villages as a place of rubbish, damp smell and pig living. Well, it was not that much different, but still, it was good, it was better, it was best. If this is what they call a ‘village’ and that a ‘city’, I will be glad to settle here. But who am I kidding. I can’t, I just can’t. That’s a very sweet-sour irony.
Anyways, the bus arrived and they did stop at the tea stall. As the bus was partly filled, it departed soon. I bid the Lakkad ram and his family goodbye, and thanked them for letting a city man to just taste a little bit of their life. I was never going to be able to forget them. The tea stall owner was still sharing me. I wondered why? Anyways, the bus reached Gangapur.

After five hours, I was with Mohan. The car was now perfect. We headed to home sweet home.
“Mohan, you did tell me about bus stop, but didn’t tell me that there was a village there too.”  I asked. “What village you are talking about? There is no village there.”- Mohan replied. “The villages, on the opposite side of the road, with a tea stall and mud houses.”- I said. “There is a tea stall there, I know it. But there is not a village there, at least not in my lifetime”- Mohan replied confidently. “That’s weird”- I thought.

As soon as I reached home, I took help of my most trusted friend, Google. What I came to know was thunderclap. The village did exist there, but some 20 years ago, till it became a victim of a major fire accident. Everyone and everything was burnt to ground, nothing was left. Suddenly, all the images of the village circled in my mind. It didn’t take me much time to realize that I have just returned from a “Ghost Village”. That’s amazing. No wonder why tea stall owner stared me. I mean, how many people do you see that come to your shop, order two teas, and then talk in air and make it one, then go to a burnt ground, sit there, again talk in air, pretend to eat, stand up, take a stroll, and then leave on bus, still taking in air.




The images of Lakkad ram still haunts me, inviting me to the village again. Really, now I can’t forget him, literary, neither him, nor my 30 minutes at village, most beautiful and most scary one. Oh Gosh!!!






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About ME

Hi there, Fellow-Seekers. The name's PJ. A regular guy, with some Not-So-Regular thoughts,which I terms as my RHYTHMS. So if you also have a Rhythm yourself, then this the blog for you. Come one,Come all. And Happy Rhythm Seeking 

Long time,No see!!!

I was at platform, the other day
waiting for my train,gazing at the track, 
suddenly someone patted my back and said
"Long time,No see! remember me, I'm mack.

Haven't seen you since the school,
How are you doing nowadays,Patrick?"
"I am fine",I said,"How are you? Everything's cool?"
"Just as great, Where are you headed?"

"To college, as usual. Where are you headed?"
"Oh! I am just on my way to the bank.

Do you remember all our deed,
all our mischiefs, all our prank?

How we planted cockroaches in Matthew's locker
How we changed the classroom sign,
how we make-uped the sleeping guard to joker,
and then we have to pay some heavy fine?"

I laughed heartily,"That was a good one.
Tell me some more about the good ol' days"
"Well there was one time, it was so fun,
when we put fire beneath fire alarm, anyways

We had so much scolding,then black listed,
from that day onwards, I vowed to be better,
I worked hard...." suddenly our focus shifted
to the coming train,"Have to go. See you later"

Then he boarded the train, and sat by the window.
Then I saw my other friend coming to me.
"Who was that guy,John?", he asked. "I don't know.
But he was a good time-pass. Wasn't he?"

Happily Ever After

Once upon a time, a woodcutter,
returning home after collecting woods,
came across a small river
and sat there to relieve his foots.


Suddenly his axe fell into the river
he cried aloud for he had only one
suddenly the river god appear
 "what's up! why so serious, son?"

"My axe has fallen into river", the god went
and came up with a golden axe.
"is it that,fella!" God asked, but he resent
"no, mine was just an iron axe."

God went again, and came with a silver one
He said,"are you on drugs on something!
An iron axe" he said, "dont make a fun.
Otherwise i will hit you with something"

God chuckled and brought his iron axe,
along with the previous two and said,
"For your honesty, keep the two axe"
And then the river god fled.

Woodcutter became rich and got married.
And years after,was strolling in the garden,
with his wife, he came across a well, very deep,
his wife, while looking it, fell in.

water god appeared again,"what's up! Buddy."
he said," My wife fell in, bring her back."
God went and came up with a beauty,
"is this your wife?" woodcuter said "yes".

God laughed,"That's not fair, Buddy.
A beauty changed your heart." He voice
"Not my fault, based on previous memory,
if i said no, you would bring me another choice.

And then I'll say no again to that
and then you will leave all three to me.
handling one is a game of rat.
How will i handle all the three.

So I thought to take the first one."
God then burst into laughter.
"Ok, take the beauty and go to home"
And then they lived happily ever after.

Monday, December 8, 2014

A Smile

What's the most beautiful thing you have seen?
So beautiful,it made your eyes gleam.
A flower, in the morning dew,
Rose perhaps, Pink, maybe blue?
A moon, in it's glimmering light?
A Starry Sky, in a dark night?




What's the purest thing you have seen?
So pure, it made your mind serene.
A seedling sprouting, struggling for surface?
A new wave of brook, in its grace?
A PRAYER of a toddler, a wish of an infant?
First ray of the sun, from horizon distant?



What's the sweetest thing you have seen?
So sweet, it made you heart went lean
The first word of a baby, calling her mumma?
A help to a needy friend, in his dilemma?
The first gift of a lover to her mistress?
A wishing phone call, a letter, a message?

Now,have you seen all these, together?

The sweet, The pure, The beautiful? Never?
Well, I have seen it, all in one.
A curve of a lip, by definition.
A smile, of someone, for whom you care
A smile, the greatest gift, you can spare
A smile, filling your inner void.
A smile, which you can't avoid.
A smile, for everyday, till the eternity
That's all I ask, a smile for me. 


-Dedicated to a Special Friend, and her Precious Smile :)




Sunday, December 7, 2014

In A Blue Moon

Once I was sitting alone in park,quiet 
watching the blue moon in its full light. 
memories took me down to past 
maybe some 3 years; yes it was, 
my 19th birthday, 23rd of may 
everyone was very happy and gay 

but my eye were on the door 
every once in a while I looked once more 
waiting for someone I was sad,
then suddenly the door opened and came a lad 
I rushed to him, he greeted me happy birthday 
I taunted," where was you whole day?"

he said,"I was arranging for the present,
Here's your gift,take it" but I resent;
"I don't want your gift your presence was needed.
Do you know today is blue moon, don't miss it"
we rushed to the roof, and looked for the moon, 
"it is marvelous" ,he said "we will meet very soon."

"Why?" ,I asked," where are you going" 
"I have joined the army. It is my dream." 
I became sad, "what will I do without you"
"Don't cry my girl. one day I will meet you,
when I will be something and will take you away
and will build our small nest I swear."
"When will it happen?" I asked him with tears.  
"you know next blue moon free after 3 years 
and on that night I will propose you with a ring"
"that's a promise",I said "don't forget this thing. 
after 2 years came a letter with his death news 
my world broke down my heart gets a bruise 

now when I think of him my eyes are tears. 
suddenly from the dark, a postman appears 
"it is a special delivery" he  handed me the letter 
when I read the whole moon shattered 
it was from him before you went to war.
It said "you are so near yet so far

This may be my final words don't mourn
if something happens to me I want you to move on 
but I kept the promise I made to you,see
I proposes you that the ring- will you marry me?" 
and a ring fell out, a curse , or a boon
And this all happened in a blue moon.

The Crystal Dream

One fine night, I saw a dream,
I was rowing in crystal stream.

Stars were shining, moon was bright,
Everything else was calm and quiet.

Only the sound of me, rowing in stream,
I looked down, to see the moon gleam.

In front of me, she was sitting,
We two were alone on the boating.

I saw in her eyes, the twin stars dazzled,
She touched water, the moon glimmered. 

It was all magical,wishing not to end,
Then I saw a crystal castle and we bend.

I rowed to its gates, and the doors closed,
And in a beautiful magical world, we were lost.




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